Motherhood = Lack of Sleep = Winter Blues

Recently, I found myself in the midst of some very blue days.

I felt extremely sad and lonely and my homesickness for Denver (city life) was ultra-strong.

I had already noticed that when I lack sleep – and I’m always lacking these days – I feel depressed. The depressed feelings were just starting to become more obtrusive – lasting longer throughout the day and for more days in a row.

And then, yeah, couple weeks ago it got pretty bad. I was beginning to actually get tearful at times. I haven’t felt that way in a long time, but it’s becoming apparent that this happens to me every couple of years.

Now? I’m almost better again. I’m back to my enthusiasm about my current entrepreneurial endeavor, but it’s at a healthy, non-manic level.

So yeah, I meant to write some posts about depression while I was feeling so blue, but it’s possible that the storm may have passed for now.

Either way, I’m reading Andrew Weil’s book Spontaneous Happiness. Thank you loving hubby for ordering it for me at the library!

And I’m really going to work on getting to bed earlier. Honest!

Like all moms, I’m sure, it’s extremely hard for me to get to bed at a decent hour. I never have time to do the reading and writing I want to do when Sebastian is awake.

Every night I face the dilemma. We make dinner, get the baby to bed, and then, against my better judgement, I stay up too late.

But, I’ve got to take care of me if I want to live my best life.

Maybe a miracle will happen and I’ll suddenly start going to bed between 9 and 10 pm, getting up at 6, exercising, having tons of energy, and living happily ever after!

A girl can dream!

But for now, I’m taking my vitamins, walking as much as I can during the week, and making it a goal to hit the sheets before 10 pm!

What time do you go to bed? What time does your alarm clock (or your kid) wake you up? Does lack of sleep give you the blues?

 

3 thoughts on “Motherhood = Lack of Sleep = Winter Blues

  1. Check out this post – pretty cool!
    http://dooce.com/2012/03/22/hair-day-seventy-five

    I get to sleep pretty early now days. In bed around 8pm, we watch a show on the DVR and I nurse Stella, by 9pm it’s lights out. i get up a couple of times to nurse her, and then on work days I’m up at 6am for the day. Ugh. I hate mornings. Going to bed so early is pretty much a necessity for me though. Lack of sleep definitely gets me down otherwise.

  2. Thanks for the link, Josey. It’s always nice to see that others struggle with the blues, too. I don’t know why. It’s not like it makes me happy to see other people sad!

    Man, I’m really struggling with getting to bed early enough – so good for you! I’m thinking it could help if we got a DVR so I’m not seduced into staying up by the TV. Truthfully though, I’m usually trying to squeeze in some reading after Sebastian goes to bed anyway. So it might still be tough.

    Speaking of which, I have Heather Armstrong’s (of Dooce) first book if you want to borrow it. It’s in my HUGE to-read pile.

  3. That’s one of the things I do during the middle of the night nursings – read books on my phone and/or kindle. :) I actually already have Dooce’s first book – thanks though!

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